Pray the rosary.
I learned to pray the rosary when I was two and my father was thought to be dying of a perforated colon. Despite what the doctor’s told us, he miraculously survived. Much later in his life, when my father was very close to death, his heart was still not aligned with God’s will and Dad was in spiritual torment. My mother and I prayed in his room while he slept and when he heard us praying he would tell us to stop that…Until he woke one time while we were praying the rosary and he didn’t ask us to stop. When we saw he was awake, we continued to pray, but much quieter. He said “No, keep praying.” My mother looked at me and started praying in a louder voice and I did as well. Shortly after we finished, my father confessed that he was afraid to die because he loved my mother so and would miss her. I saw an opening of his heart and spoke the words a dear friend had shared with me, seemingly out of the blue, about losing her husband years ago. “Death is not the end of love, it is loving everyone as intensely as you love your spouse here on earth.” My father sighed and gave his will up to God. He became peaceful about everything and died in peace a few weeks later. His soul could be at rest.
Not every end to my prayers has been as miraculous an answer…Jeff didn’t survive the second cancer. Our baby didn’t make it out of the womb alive…Or maybe they have. It’s just not the way I wanted the prayers to be answered. I prayed Jeff be free of the cancer. I prayed our baby would be happy and follow the Lord always.
What is undeniably true for me however; is that when I do pray the rosary, I am given a peace much like my father exhibited. When I pray the rosary, I see the life of Jesus. I reflect not only on how Mary felt, but how different people in the mysteries reacted to God’s message. When I pray the rosary I notice that it makes it easier for me to align my will with the Father’s will, through His Son and guided by the Holy Spirit, the spiritual spouse of Mary. I used to go to the rosary only in moments of trouble of severe need. It struck me that it was selfish if I only went when I needed something so desperately. It is a devotion of growing closer to Jesus through the eyes of His mother. Do I only want to be close to Him when I am in sever straights? No! I want to continue to know Him better and be closer to Him all the time.
I remember someone in prayer each rosary I offer. Sometimes it’s the souls in Purgatory, sometimes it’s for someone who has been presented to me with a specific need.
I pray the rosary while I walk our dog in the morning, besides other times. I think Buddy likes me feeling peaceful too.